Friday, May 23, 2008

On a spiritual note

I wasn't sure about posting this here, but then I remembered this is my blog and I can do what I want here. Anyway, I was having a low day this morning. I think it was the sugar low from the chocolate cake with fudge frosting I ate last night. I was feeling depressed and angry. I decided to go visit my friend Holly. She has had my diaper bag since she babysat for us on Tuesday and I have had some stuff to give her as well. I decided to take along the Ensign (I am her visiting teacher) even though I hadn't really read it yet. I haven't read one in months actually. I kind of skimmed and found a bold passage that stuck out to me and later read through it with her. It was a good reminder to me and lifted my low spirits as did the 2 hour talk we had while I was there. The section was this: "Some are lost because they are weary." Lately I have been feeling weary. It gets better some days, but overall I have not been feeling joy in all that I have to accomplish. The reminder I got from this talk was to let the Lord carry some of that burden. It was a message that reminded me that I have accomplished great things when I have involved the Lord in my life. I have not been doing that as much as I ought to lately and I have been feeling the strain that results from carrying my burdens by myself. Why do I forget so quickly when I have had so many experiences that have taught me to trust in His help? You can find the whole talk here if you are interested.

4 comments:

Dallan said...

You are loved more than you know. Thanks for sharing that.

DeeAnn said...

I feel your pain, Naomi. It's a constant struggle. I find myself feeling close to the spirit and feeling good about things, and then I slack off because "everythings ok" right? And then I turn around and all of a sudden I'm not so close to the spirit anymore, so I refocus and the cycle starts all over again.

I'm very glad we are friends.

Emily W. said...

I also go through this cycle, and I've learned that I just need some days to feel overwhelmed and/or underwhelmed by life. I think as a mother, letting myself have low days and not feeling pressure to make myself feel happy is the most important thing I have learned. On Sundays, if I feel down, I don't feel pressured to stay for the whole church meeting. If I am down at home during the day, I make sure I take care of my needs as much as possible before I take care of E. The most important thing I remind myself is that "this to shall pass." It seems like I've been through the up down cycle so much that I would get used to it, but I don't. Thanks for sharing your feelings. I know the Lord loves you and is aware of you. I hope you give yourself a break every once in awhile and just know that you are loved exactly as you are. I am glad you stumbled on that article. The spirit is amazing.

Julie E. said...

I knew there was a reason I jumped on your blog this morning. Thanks for sharing - I really needed that today.